Still haven't figured it out.....

The walls are closing in around me, there's no way I'll let them get me now,
But it's hard to hold them up, When everyone around me let me down.
So I try to pick up the pieces, With a world of burden on my back,
But a rattled brain and chest pains, Indicate to brace for heart attack.
Is the danger an internal one?...Will that final fleeting breath,
Be a death from natural causes? Or a natural cause of death.
Is this life I chose the lonely road, Paved with rage to warm the cold?
Or is there one with hands to mold this desperate man, whos' soul I sold?
Is this life a life worth living? When my only sight is seen in red?
Is it better to sleep alone at night, or have a corpse inside my bed?
"Who knows", I tell myself, As I struggle toward the edge......
You never know how hard you'll hit the ground, Until you leave the ledge.

Who am I?

thought I would start blogging some rants, poems, and random thoughts for your enjoyment. here is my first of most likely many poems:

I am a worthless wreck with nothing to offer except everything you could ever imagine. A simple man, more complex than you will ever know. I am capable of such a love to fill any heart, and such a rage to blacken the same. I am the knight in shining armor that will reluctantly feed you to the dragon but slay him in the end. I am a walking contradiction. Torn between chaotic serenity, and peaceful insanity. A complete stranger with a strange sense of familiarity, enough to find my way into your heart and call it my home long enough to ruin any chance of future inhabitants. So open the door I think I might stay a while. Who am I you ask..........That's a good question.